Drowning in Lavendar

I posted a bunch of new carrot pics to my photobucket. s258.photobucket.com/albums/hh245/KireiShojo/Carrot/

I am also posting some new cat videos to the youtube. my screen name is LashanaSerene there.

And it seems like only 2 of my friends have any ability to come over to hang out and craft. My lil sis isn't returning my calls about her being in the eugene area this weekend. I'm also not sure what can be done about rides for the friends of mine without cars. If people want to try to show up i'll be sitting around and crafting from 6pm onwards. But for now i need to go to the farmers market to get some taters for monday's dinner.

So. My birthday is monday and i was thinking of trying to do something on the weekend. I know it is short notice but would people like to come over and craft on saturday?

So as people may recall my MIL jazzrat got me and mookraker a digi-camera for christmas. Well our roomie dave (dave's not here man.....) got me a 2 gig sd card for it as a birthday present. I can do video now!
So i was testing this feature and i caught a adorable clip of carrot playing.



Or if the imbedding isnt working go here http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ykMCPw_QsCc

mookraker was talking about how he was trying to dissuade an aquantance on campus from naming their firstborn random. so we were discussing the name and jono was thinking a different book series than the rest of the house.
we all thought zelasny and he thought of addams. you see in so long and thanks for all the fish we encounter the daughter of trillian and dent and she is named random. So we went into a riff on the you got your x in my y rant. Which lead to horrifying thoughts like the hitchhikers guide to the shadows, or the hitchikers guide to the logrus.


So yeah... strange household.

just thought you would find this funny.

Just havent been much up to posting. it's the last half of the term and i'm tired a lot and suchlike.

But i think that my FL would appreciate it.

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karjack will see an homage to something she said.

went rather well. Because we didnt want her to have any seizures on the 2hr car trip we gave her a half pill aprazolam (xanax) which ment that she was slightly dopey as well as grumpy when she neuro saw her. She was reactive and the like but she was doing the loaf of eXtreme unhappiness. The neuro said something that is very good. By her sheer seizured longevity it isnt any disease. It is to her thoughts either structural or neurochemical. Due to that she is switching carrot's med again entirely removing one and weaning one of the others. Carrot went the entire trip without seizing and it's been 48hrs now since the last one. *knock on wood* The vet will be having us remove the xanax entirely and replace it with zonisamide and will be weaning carrot down to a lower dose of the gabapentin/neurontin. If all goes well we will be lowering the pheno back to a healthier level.


The neuro would like us to bring her for a recheck 2-3 weeks after we start the new med which due to compunding needs would be 3-4 weeks from this visit. so we're going to have to squeeze aside that money.  (again thank you to the friend who gave us the money neccesary for this visit. I  have given carrot many snuggles on your behalf)


After the vet visit we went out to lunch with biomekanic and newroticgirl . much fun and chatter was had and much snuggle passing of a doped out carrot-cat. We are feeling guardedly more hopefull on the kitty.

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snerfle. snicker.

you use them to wash the taste of the horrible cherry flavour out of your mouth. I developed a bronchial cough with greenish flem on tuesday. I went to see the nurse wed. I got told to stay off campus till monday (or if i needed to be on campus like today for a midterm, i should wear a mask and be there for the absolute min amount of time). I also got a scrip for a cough syrup with codine which i am to take an hr before bed.
I am thinking that yet again i am becoming more like my mother. She has cronic seasonal bronchitis. I love her but oy.
this will have no affect on our taking carrot to the vet and should have no affect on being able to at least say hello to people in portland area on our way back down. this seems to be mostly caused by the seasonal allergies i have.

if i seem disjointed... i took the cough syrup 20 mins ago.

Sorry for not posting much in the last two weeks. life has been.... well life. Due to the kindness of a friend we will be taking carrot-cat to see a neurologyst up in portland this saturday. Her cluster seizures are back and accelerating so our normal vet has requested we see a specialist before we change up the meds more. She made it to her second birthday though. We can see the forst for the trees and honestly even with med ajusts dont hold out much hope for her lasting till three. We would be pleasantly surprized if it does happen.
I am learing the hard realities of being an adult. We have to be the ones who make the hard but neccesary decisions in life. It is not the point yet where neccesity requires it but being an adult means being aware it is coming.

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oh the innanity and insanity

i got a firm reminder today on why i use the phrase. sticks and stones may break my bones but words will hurt forever.
long story short. People (in theory*) on the web made mean hurtful comments about me in a game and i lashed back leading to my being dropped from a clan i am in on said game.  I know i shouldn't let it get to me but they hit a major vulnerable point and i'm still fighting off the negative feedback loop. I AM not a wildebeest.

* i say in theory because i can't know for sure that it isnt some computerized insult bot.

week seven.

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i dont think that my life will top "giving seizure cat sub-q fluids during a lull between seizures in a cluster seizure to lower body temp" on the scale of odd things i do in my life anytime soon. it needed done and we only got 50 ml in before we had to stop because we could feel the start of another seizure. But it pretty much stopped the cluster after that one.

a word of note. cats look pitiful when they are soaking wet (that was our initial method of trying to keep her body temp down during this cluster)

So this term i have a womens history course that requires an oral history project. I was discussing this with my dad because of the wide array of strong interesting females, of my parent's generation and before, that are in my family. Sadly the one who i most would have liked to interview for this died last year at the age of 94 (if i remember right.... 2008-1914= 94 yay correct math!) that was my gram, Great grandma anne. Since i can no longer use her i'm torn between my one remaining grandma, my dad's sole sister (non in-law) who never married, or my mother. There is also vague consideration of my mother's cousin cheryl who is a circus performer.
But back to the origional concept. Discussion of classes led to the fact my younger sis is taking a course on feminism. it also led to the fact that my dad threw my older brother for a small loop in a phone discussion they had. My dad was talking bout something the bishop of his area talks about. the 7 besetting sins of our age of which radical feminism is one.  that rattled my bro a bit and ended the conversation. apparently he talked with my sis and my sis taked with my dad and i got from my dad a simple explanation of what was ment by 'radical' feminism. to quote "Nut busters".
Second wave radical gender feminists. This is the camp of dworkin and the extremist feminists. I can see some of why the catholic church would consider this radical form of feminism to be a sin.
The thing being in this that it implies they may not think of all feminism as worthy of being considered a sin. Heck as near as i can tell my mom qualifies as a pro-life equality feminist. that being she tends to the kind of feminism whose main goal is equity, especially in politics and education. Non mysandric non gynocentric but rather equal opportunity to develop into a person. My parents raised 6 strong willed children without gendered preferential treatment. We were treated with equal amounts of growing autonomy as we matured. To my memory we were neither forced into nor prohibited from gendered expressions of self. Now some of what i say here in memory could be false or a failure to remember because i have had several concussions and have aspergers and could just have failed to notice. anyhow i think i may have rambled enough on this subject now.

well less image spam and more picture blog.
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So i went to talk to the disability services people on campus today. I was asking for an accommodation to allow me to have my computer out in a class where the teacher doesn't want them out. The reason i am requesting this is that i am now recording the classes i take so i can review them by ear as i study the notes i take. It has helped me somewhat this last term and i know that there are days when my auditory overload (or stress overload) can make my notes sketchy. (note the teacher did say in the syllabus that allowances can be made to her policy for disability related reasons)
So why am i talking about it here and why is it a musing?
well i always forget how stress inducing it is to discuss my aspergers beyond the generic with people who i barely know. even if they are there to help me. Some of it goes back to the internalized expectation that i shouldnt have to ask for help, that i can just pull myself along. I know it's not entirely possible even for people who are NT but i feel lessened a little by needing it.

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So we had a full house of guests. including madrona and her adorable tiny wee tot. It was nice.

This friday at 6pm is the craft night. I at this point have 3 rsvp's and room for more people. If you are going to be able to make it please tell me so i can plan around furnature shuffling if needed.

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